I wish it wasn’t this way, I wish this wasn’t so grey.
If only there was something, someone could say, to take it all away.
I cant put a finger on why I have survived today, but I have.
Suicide becomes, the only logical Solution, when your done with just existing.
To just exist, is no way to exist, there’s no use trying when I’m like this!
I’ll box myself in, caged with my distain, for the hell I’m living in,
Don’t fucking love me, don’t say you want me, I don’t deserve you.
Just don’t remember me, I cant cope, there’s no hope.
If you could feel, the mess and utter emptiness, would you know?
I cant describe the burnt out parts of my soul, all this life has took from me.
I’m scared of the mere feeling, trauma doesn’t cut it,
Worthlessness, I need an out, take me out.
Memories and half memories all broken up,
The broken pieces, still cut beneath my skin.
Today I want to live, but tomorrow I don’t know.